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What else can I say?
It's not that I'm lacking inspiration...
No matter how far out into hyperspace I venture, somehow it always settles back down into this.
...the beautiful brunette girl from 26th street is the only person I see during my day that I actually want to talk to and spend time around.
I really try to give others a chance, and I treat everybody with compassion and respect. Still, I never encounter anybody that I actually want to spend time around.
I try to remain as humble as possible, and I would never judge anyone.
...actually, there are a few people here and there that I really want to interact with. I love to listen, and I love to learn new things. Often times people will assume that because I like the grateful dead's music that I would want to interact with other grateful dead fans, when in reality this is not the case at all, I already know about the dead, you know? I want to meet people that can teach me new things, that have interests that are new and interesting.
Well, first off I should have started by saying that when others put a good deal of effort into sycophantically conforming to this or that "cookie-cutter culture" it automatically causes me to loose interest in interacting with that person. I like to meet individuals who truly are unique, who have novel and strange interests, and who see and do things in their own individual way. I like to meet "the undefined". I think jerry was right on when he commented that by leaving something undefined it in essence becomes everything, and I always enjoy meeting people who consciously or not, have left themselves undefined.
It always drives me crazy when others will attempt to define me, though I can somewhat understand what drives them to do so, I think it brings them comfort in diminishing the unknown in their environment, they will look at a person and say "ah, this person must be a hippie, therefore I know what they think and believe", and in doing this they are comforted, often feeling that can can even predict how this person will behave or react. When these people encounter someone that they can't define it automatically brings them discomfort, it's an unknown for them, and when people feel something is unknown the general reaction is fear in one firm or another.
I've never defined myself, I would see labels and definitions and encumberments or restraints...
Part of it's magic is that we've always avoided defining any part of it, and the effect seems to be that in not defining it, it becomes everything. -Jerry Garcia
I've never understood the urge to "be part of something". It's as if some are searching for something larger than themselves in which they can abandon their individuality and dedicate themselves to, and I've just never been able to fully grasp the motivation behind this.
...I guess it is easier to have all of your views, beliefs, choices in fashion, music, speech, and activities all set in place, where all you would have to do is conform to the established "cookie-cutter culture", but personally, that type of thing would drive me mad.
...again, nothing but garbage writing this morning.
It's not that I am uninspired, just poorly motivated towards generating anything more than mediocre dribble.
·I'm in love with the beautiful brunette girl from 26th street who sits next to me every morning.
·I never meet anybody worth interacting with
I believe those were the two initial points here, and somehow it got dragged into some overly simplistic dissection of cultural conformity and its detrimental effect on free thought and individuality.
It's been cold. The fog this morning was incredible. I'm going to spend the rest of the day snuggled up in bed watching netflix with Melanie. (Maybe one day ill be able to spend cold days cuddled up with the beautiful brunette girl from 26th rather than Melanie, who is just a close friend. Dont get me wrong, it's nice to have a girl to snuggle up with and to hold and to keep each other warm on a cold day, but with Melanie it's entirely platonic, we love each other, but it's not romantic, and I know for a fact that I would be so much happier if I could enjoy awesome movies all day while cuddled up in a nice warm bed with the beautiful brunette girl from 26th street, that would be like a dream come true. The beautiful brunette girl from 26th has a really adorable side to her, and I know she would be perfect to snuggle up with and to hold tight, plus, times likes these are best spent with someone you love romantically. (No offense Melanie! You know I love you, and I love spending cold days in bed with you, but you understand, I wish I could spend days like this with a girl that I love romantically)