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« Reply #75 on: December 01, 2018, 11:48:36 AM »
And at the centre of that impulse is the shaman: stoned, intoxicated on plants, speaking with the spirit helpers, dancing in the moonlight, and vivifying and invoking a world of conscious, living mystery. That’s what the world is. The world is not an unsolved problem for scientists or sociologists. The world is a living mystery: our birth, our death, our being in the moment – these are mysteries. They are doorways opening on to unimaginable vistas of self-exploration, empowerment and hope for the human enterprise. And our culture has killed that, taken it away from us, made us consumers of shoddy products and shoddier ideals. We have to get away from that; and the way to get away from it is by a return to the authentic experience of the body – and that means sexually empowering ourselves, and it means getting loaded, exploring the mind as a tool for personal and social transformation. -terence McKenna

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« Reply #76 on: December 01, 2018, 11:50:03 AM »
and the way to get away from it is by a return to the authentic experience of the body – and that means sexually empowering ourselves, and it means getting loaded, exploring the mind as a tool for personal and social transformation. -terence McKenna

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« Reply #77 on: December 01, 2018, 11:51:32 AM »
The society is trying to cure itself by an archaic revival, by a reversion to archaic values. So when I see people manifesting sexual ambiguity, or scarifying themselves, or showing a lot of flesh, or dancing to syncopated music, or getting loaded, or violating ordinary canons of sexual behaviour, I applaud all of this; because it’s an impulse to return to what is felt by the body – what is authentic, what is archaic – and when you tease apart these archaic impulses, at the very centre of all these impulses is the desire to return to a world of magical empowerment of feeling. -terence McKenna

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« Reply #78 on: December 02, 2018, 09:24:23 PM »
I still have an incredible attraction to this gorgeous brunette girl from 26th street, and I want to focus on her. She is perfect. Most girls have trouble understanding the difference between "sexy" and "slutty", but this girl is naturally sexy while just being herself. Plus, she is responsible, she is hard working, and she has a good head on her shoulders, so aside from being the most incredibly gorgeous and amazing beautiful girl that I have ever encountered, she is also respectable and posses many admirable traits. I always feel warm and comfortable around her, and I would give anything just to have a chance with her.

If you're still differentiating among girls as "sexy" or "slutty," you have a long way to go. But doesn't everyone.

Every girl is sexy and beautiful. Some just lose sight of that because of the worse aspects of this world. What they think the world demands for them to be loved. Guys have their own struggles too, of course.

And, yes, people read posts here :)
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« Reply #79 on: December 03, 2018, 11:24:18 AM »
I can understand how the "sexy" and "slutty" could be taken in an offensive manner, but if you actually knew me and my views on females I'm sure you would have taken the statement as intended.

I was thinking more along the lines that a girl doesn't have to look like a Barbie-doll or a pron-star to be considered sexy, and that not all guys find a hyper-sexualized and objectified appearance to be attractive.

I was saying that this girl was naturally attractive while remaining herself, and that even though she doesn't fit the stereotypical ideal of what modern culture considers sexy, and even though she wasn't wearing skimpy clothing or projecting a hyper-sexualized image, that to me she was far more sexy than that stereotypical hyper-sexual ideal anyway.

I wasn't trying to judge females who prefer a sexualized fashion, and I wasn't trying to say that women are not beautiful.



...I'm sure people read posts here, its just for some reason I figured that nobody cared about anything that I had to write, and that so long as everything I write was confined to a single thread that it would simply be ignored.

I mean, recently I have been working with psychedelics in relation to sexuality. I never fully was able to explore this aspect of psychedelia in the past, and to be honest I probably wouldn't have been ready when I was younger, but now that I am grown and mature and now that I have a group a girls that I love and trust, and who are incredibly experienced in when it comes to sexuality, specially in relation to psychedelics, the time for this exploration is perfect. However, as its obvious that I am going to be misjudged or criticized, I do my best to NOT talk about this stuff unless its with an appropriate audience.

In the link below you can somewhat get an idea of what these psychedelic group love events are really like, only in our situation its only me and four girls, no strangers allowed, we all love and trust each other, we are all taking entactogenic/aphrodisiac psychedelics and we are not clothed and will engage in sexual activity, but its basically the same type of people and vibe as those featured in the link below.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HhGs6slruSY

https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3DHhGs6slruSY&ved=2ahUKEwiV_eKPg4TfAhVHz1QKHeHnD-oQwqsBMAF6BAgMEAg&usg=AOvVaw0eYfSvfJUburdKVKTqPYiR

(For some reason it only let's me copy and paste the mobile YouTube url with the "m" in it, and that it doesn't work for everybody, if it doesn't work for you go to YouTube, it is titled "Dawg's Cuddle Party" CadetMPLSHappy 21,141 views)


We actually have "cuddle parties" as well. Honestly, I think everybody should do this, its great for building empathy and connecting with others, it helps remind us that we can love anybody as they were our family.

As a feminist I felt I had to explain, at least in regards to how you responded to that comment.

When I said I wouldn't have posted about me and the girls if I knew people were reading this its because I know that the majority of people will never understand. I know that most people don't have 3 or 4 close friends who they love and trust and who they can explore these things with, and I know that when it comes to sexuality and psychedelics that people usually misinterpret it as senseless hedonistic fucking, you really cant explain to them the empathy, love, oneness, beauty, connection and transformation that composes the core of these experiences. Psychedelic sexuality is selfless and centered on love, closeness, oneness, transformation, and sublime ecstasy, its the exact opposite of dirty, hedonistic, and pointless fucking.

Regardless, I would prefer to keep the lovemaking and psychedelic taking explorations between me and the girls private.

After it happened I was euphoric, I'm still euphoric from it, but just after it happened I had to say something, I was hoping that I could vent my excitement here and that pretty much nobody would see it.

I suppose you are free to think about it what you want, though I was hoping that if anywhere I could get some understanding here.


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« Reply #80 on: December 03, 2018, 11:31:42 PM »
intrepid, considering that this is your poetry/prose thread, why not keep it on topic? Start a new thread, on another forum here at spirit plants, to keep on exploring other topics

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« Reply #81 on: December 04, 2018, 06:06:56 AM »
I suppose I could do that, though I honestly prefer to keep all my posting confined to a single thread on a single site.

I tried starting discussions
http://www.spiritplants.org/forums/the-medicine-lodge/why-lsd-lasts-12-hours/msg34766/#msg34766

http://www.spiritplants.org/forums/the-medicine-lodge/neural-plasticity-and-psychedelics/msg34765/#msg34765

http://www.spiritplants.org/forums/the-medicine-lodge/serotonergic-psychedelics-and-personality-change/msg34767/#msg34767

http://www.spiritplants.org/forums/the-medicine-lodge/psychedelic-drug-use-associated-with-reduced-partner-violence-in-men/msg34768/#msg34768

Yet nobody responded, and to be honest the available topics already have a billion responses or are uninteresting.

...and I'm sure that my posting here still qualifies as prose.


I don't mind responding, if someone misinterpreted my writing surely I have a right to respond, no? I wanted to clarify what I was saying, I was trying to explain how some girls feel they need to look like Barbie-dolls or "porn stars" to be considered sexy, and that this is absolutely not the case, these girls are beautiful exactly how they are.

Any way, maybe change the name of the thread to "intrepid_traveler's bullshit thread" or something more fitting.

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« Reply #82 on: December 04, 2018, 06:15:05 AM »
This is the candy for this weekend.

The pills are 2C-B, 5-meo-dipt, and a small portion is MDMA. I pressed a few hundred of these on a single pill press for Halloween, but because they were more than just MDMA it seemed nobody wanted to compulsively re-dose, which I saw as a good thing, though it did leave me with a surplus of these pills...

The mushrooms are golden-teachers (stropharia cubensis) but there's only 14g in that bag, so I'm getting more.

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« Reply #83 on: December 04, 2018, 08:57:04 AM »
I've always seen my daily ramblings as similar to the amphetamine fueled prose of Jack Kerouac.

Watching Jack unroll what looks like a sheet of paper towels but which is in fact the continuous piece of paper he typed his book on, and jacks style of prose, all reminds me of the daily rants and ramblings I post here...

I think it is prose.

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« Reply #84 on: December 04, 2018, 09:20:47 AM »
Just before Halloween I purchased the bit-coins, I had everything set up. The foxy was coming from Japan, and was labeled "ゴメオ". The 2c-b and MDMA were ordered through a different supplier.

I nervously waited for the package to arrive, "did customs raid my stash?" I wondered. "I am going to get busted?"
In the end the package arrived without issue. The product was hidden in a headphones package which was stuffed with this bubble-wrap nonsense. It took me a while to actually find the stuff, for a while I thought I had just spent a ton of money on some cheap headphones.

After sorting the stuff, weighing out the ratios, and going to work with the single pill press, I had finally obtained my final product. Beautiful, white, non-stamped pills.

When I first met Melanie she would describe all of the fun things she wanted to try out "if she could only get the psychedelics", and being that she was an incredibly pretty girl that I really liked I foolishly blurted out
 "I can easily get whatever you want".
'Reallyyy?" She replied.
At that point I had pretty much trapped myself into making it happen, so I started shopping for product that night.

In the mean time I still had a good deal of WoW blotter LSD, I thought I had more than I could ever eat and was bent on giving most of it away, until I met Melanie, now all of that LSD is reserved for me and her, and her friends, and now that we have call these fund things to do with it it seems like there's never enough.

A few years back I mastered pybop condensation of lysergic acid with diethylamine, and to this day its the most worthwhile and ultimately valuable thing that I had ever learned, and I thank God every day that I had background in chemistry enough to master the synthesis fairly quickly. Casey Hardison's pybop notes were helpful, but it was ultimately David E. Nichols technique that I ended up pilfering for my synthesis.

These compounds are catalysts to love, empathy, understanding and gnosis, they seem to be able to temporarily dissolve our programming, and with it our neuroses and baggage. They allow us to see that we are all connected...

Here is an example of connection between humans which we deny: the other day I was on the bus, and I looked over at a pretty girl in the car next to me, and as I looked at her she instantly turned and looked back at me. It was as if she could 'feel" my eyes on here, or as if I was able to reach out and tap her on the shoulder just by looking at her. We all experience this, and we know it can't be chemical or pheromones or anything like that. ...to me it seems to imply that we are all connected in ways which we refuse to acknowledge...


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« Reply #85 on: December 05, 2018, 09:08:49 AM »
For as much as some people claim to not be stalking me online, and even impersonating me online, everything I post really seems to get through.

For example: yesterday I was at the bus stop and I saw this girl who I dislike headed to the same stop, so I walked about 15 feet up the road to wait for the bus just so I wouldn't have to talk to her. So, she obviously saw me walking away when she walked up, and in the past she has seen me go to the next bus stop down just to avoid her, so it should be clear that I want her to stay away from me, yet she decides to walk up to me and start talking. Who sees someone politely avoid them and then walks up to talk to them? I mean, she actually had to go pretty far out of her way to bother me, seriously, what's this girls deal?

Well, aside from having to deal with the "creepy queen" at the bus stop the other day things have been going well. When I saw the "creepy queen" today she just shuffled passed me, thank God, hopefully she figured it out and I won't have to out right tell her to stay away from me...

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« Reply #86 on: December 05, 2018, 09:36:26 AM »
I saw the girl from 26th Today and I'm happy to report that I felt almost nothing! I still think she is beautiful and has a good heart and soul, but I no longer have any urge to interact with her or be romantically involved with her.

My life changed when I met Melanie. Before Melanie my life was on a certain track and headed in a certain direction, and at that point the girl from 26th would have been perfect for me, but then I met Melanie and everything changed, my goals and priorities were rearranged, and at this point the girl from 26th couldn't possibly fit into my life, and strangely enough, I don't want her to anymore. Its as if all the desire to have her as a partner vanished completely!

Today I didn't even notice she was there until I was about to leave, and when I did look at her it was a totally different feeling, I still felt love for her, but it was more of a platonic compassion than romantic love. It was great not feeling nervous or wanting to talk to her, it was great knowing that if she did talk to me at this point it really wouldn't matter, my interest in that area has passed, and now I barely notice when she is around.

Time has specific properties, and within those properties lay specific opportunities, if the girl from 26th would have talked to me a few weeks ago I would now be fully devoted to her and centering my life around doing everything that I possibly could for her and doing everything possible to be keeping her happy, yet, too much time had passed and the situation had changed drastically to a point where a connection would be impossible.

Its funny to think how different things could have been. You know? If the right person were to talk to you at the right time it could change everything. Yet if that same person talked to you at a different time it would have absolutely no impact at all.

Its nice to think about all that I could have done for the girl from 26th, I know I could have made her beyond happy and given her an amazing life... but clearly she wasn't interested, and moving on and just letting it go was always the best option.

Melanie changed my life in ways that I can't even describe, and will give thanks to her and tell the world that I love her every day. I love you Melanie, as well as Eliza, Delilah and ayela, if others could only understand all the love that I have found and the world of happiness that you girls bring to me...

Any way, I can't thank you enough! Somehow you knew exactly what was needed for me, and what was needed to get life moving, ill never be the same. You girls are a bright and warm light in a cold and dark universe, you are goddesses in your own right and are a shining example of all that makes life beautiful. I can't even express my absolute gratitude, thanks and gratefulness for all that you have done, and I feel that I will be forever in your debt. Any way, I know that there's a time and a place for all the sentimental praise, and that you girls don't log into this account often, but I hope that when you read this it brings a smile to your face and reminds you that I am fully yours.

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« Reply #87 on: December 06, 2018, 10:44:16 AM »
Another beautiful day that I am thankful to be alive.

I saw the girl from 26th today, and again, I almost didn't even notice that she was there. I still like her, and I would still give her a chance, but I am also fully happy if nothing ever happens there, and I'm surly not going to make anything happen there, its up to her and her alone.

Though if I were to date the girl from 26th I would have to stop seeing my girls, which is another reason why it has to be her choice, I'm not going to give up all that I have unless I know she really wants me.

I don't think the girl from 26th could ever get along with my girls...

Two of my girls star in, produce, and distribute all female erotica from the house. Its always made from the safety of the house, and its usually just solo stuff from the webcam or lesbian group sex, so these girls are incredibly open and adventurous sexually. It actually took me a while to get used to, but it really doesn't bother me any more. I actually think its pretty cool that they are making erotica that is 100% female produced and that only stars females, and I think its awesome that only females are getting any money from it. The girls love it, I mean, they are already sex fanatics who don't mind showing off their bodies, so they feel it's empowering to be able to get paid for it, and I fully support them.

Then there is Melanie and ayela who are my sweet little darling hippie chicks, they are really not into the the whole female erotica thing, though they are just as open and adventurous sexually, the girl from 26th might actually be able to get along with these girls, but who knows.

Regardless, I'm pretty sure I would have to give up my friends if I were to have a chance with the girl from 26th. So, again, it has to be her choice.

I never had a chance to explore psychedelics and sexuality in the past. I had explored psychedelics in relation to spirituality, in relation to creativity and art, in relation to gaining gnosis and understanding life and death, in relation to meditation and yoga, and in relation to just about every other area, yet when it came to sexual psychedelic exploration I never had the proper opportunity until recently. So I have been incredibly happy to have been given this opportunity and to have been given this opportunity with some of the most beautiful, intelligent, creative and special girls that I have ever met, not to mention that these girls are mind-blowing in bed, and are always showing me some new tricks and improving my performance. I want to fully explore sex with psychedelics, and I want to keep doing it with the same four girls, the only thing that would make me want to stop is finding a girl to begin a monogamous relationship with.

Ultimately I want a nice girl to settle down and start a family with, and ill give up my activities with the girls the instant that happens.

This is why I decided that if the girl from 26th wants me, and if she makes the effort to get me (though it really wouldn't take much effort, she would just have to say "hello, you are mine now" and that's how things would be) then I would be happy to be hers, I would stop seeing the girls and devote myself fully to her and only her, but she has to make the effort. I'm not going to force the situation, and I'm not going to initiate the situation. If she comes and claims me I will be hers and only hers, if not I will keep seeing my girls until I find a nice girl that I can settle down and start a family with.

Still, another beautiful day where I am loving life.

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« Reply #88 on: December 06, 2018, 11:38:38 AM »
"Dawg's Cuddle Party" video. Funny one. Couldn't tell if it was some kind of staged for film event. Did anyone offer to cuddle the camera-person?

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« Reply #89 on: December 06, 2018, 04:59:00 PM »
"Dawg's Cuddle Party" video. Funny one. Couldn't tell if it was some kind of staged for film event. Did anyone offer to cuddle the camera-person?

I really don't think much of it was staged.

That clip is from "an idiot abroad", the point of the show is basically to make the host Carl as uncomfortable as possible for laughs, so I'm sure the producers told those people to really pick at poor Carl. ...but other than that I can't imagine that much was staged.

Hmm... if I was the camera man I would have wanted to participate.

I'm not fearful of straying out of my comfort zone, and I truly enjoy and embrace new and novel experiences. As long as the proposed experience is positive and doesn't harm anyone or anything then in most cases I would probably give it a try. I've participated in meditation groups, I've done various forms of yoga, I've experimented with brainwave entrainment through isochronic tones and binaural beats, I've worked with mindmachines*, dreamachines, I've done shamanic drumming and chanting, I've taken entheogenic plants and psychedelic compounds, and yes, I've participated in cuddle parties...

It all comes down to exploring the full potential of body and mind. There are experiences one can have in the human body which most would never predict would even be possible.

For myself, the psychedelic experience has been so thoroughly integrated into my life-stream that its difficult for me to imagine that there are some people out there who have never had this experience. It's as if there is a major section of human potential and human perception that most will never even come close to knowing. ...and his has always seemed odd to me.

* https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mind_machine